Huh, I made it home. Have been here quite a while now, but just havnt been on here in ages. So I say hello to you all.

Nothing much to report thought, thank the gods for that.

So... er... Later. Perhaps much later.

Old Journal too depressing.

Had girlfriend. Didnt help.

Lots to say, no one to tell.

Not the best birthday ever.

Music not helping anymore.

So very tired.

Ok, so its been a long time since I updated this thing. So? Its not like I have a lot to say, normally. Hell, I dont really have much of anything to say now, but Im gonna rant on for a bit anyway.

Here goes.

Work is slowly killing me. I know I have said a lot about how bad the place is in the past, but I know more about how it is run now. Oh, for those who dont already know, Im back in the same place as I was in last year, Tesco Rathfarnham. The laziness of all but one or two staff members has never been so visible to me. And despite the petulant whining of the management, they do nothing at all about it.

Now, in fairness to the people there, they are generally a good bunch, and I often have a good laugh with them. But... well, lets just say that I must be spoiled, in that over the years I have worked, I have worked with people who do their jobs, even if they arent satisfied with it, or dont want to do it at all. Here, work gets done if they feel like it, and if nothing else is going on. Also, if they call in sick on a day they are rostered in for, they still get paid for it. Which means, that the store is often left short staffed.

Im going to the store social next Friday, and I am not looking forward to it at all. Ah, why did I let myself get badgered into that?

This house I live in is slowly killing me. The landlady comes over unannounced, and manages to insult me every time I talk to her. Also, the damp mould is spreading all across my room, with quite a bit of it near where my head is when I sleep. I breathe spores every night, and will probably get pneumonia if it goes on for much longer.

The housemates are... well, annoying. The back guy from downstairs was thrown out for having drunk people over, and playing the music too loud. He was replaced with a guy called Martin. He is pretty sound, and I get on well enough with him. The others... I could do without them.

College is slowly killing me. Much slower than either work or the house is though. I have a crap load of assignments to do, and little time to do them. Yes, I brought this on myself, what with being lazy and all. But so much of it is just so pointless and worthless, my mind refuses to even attempt to do the assignments. I know they are easy. I know how little time it takes to do most of them. I know, I know, I know. And yet I cannot do them, because they do not appeal to me in any way, and because I see no point to them.

The others in the course are ok. The guys in my class are generally pretty cool, and I am trying to find a new place with one of them. Im going to a college social on Thursday. Im hoping it will be ok, and Ill get the chance to mingle with some of the other classes a bit. And the break from the routine will be nice too.

Im beginning to think that college life isnt for me. I do enjoy learning new things, but so much we have to do isnt even relevant to the course Im doing. On the other side of it, I know I dont learn anywhere near as much stuff trying to do things on my own. Its a pickle.

I must admit, somewhat hesitantly, that Im pretty lonely these days. Ive pretty much always felt... apart from most people, but the distance is just so huge these days, and Im not just talking geography here. Nobody here understands me. Yes, that was pretty emo of me, but the simple truth is that it takes a long time to get to know me, as anyone who does already knows. While that means the friends I have are pretty good, adding to the number is difficult. Added to this is fact that I only have two free nights a week to do.. anything. Which is a partial reason I dont have the assignments done. For those nights, I try to relax, and get sleep if I can.

So it isnt like I have a lot of time to meet new people. And I dont know where to go to meet people, other than the pubs. Lets face it, the people Id find in the pubs arent likely to be the people with whom Id like to make friendships with. All people here in Dublin seem to care about is getting drunk, getting high, and getting laid. Bah, maybe Im too fussy, or expect too much of people.

Anyway, I think I have bored you enough for now.

Well, I'm sitting in my new room in Dublin listening to shitty dance music coming from the next room and reggae (sometimes rap) coming from downstairs. And sometimes I can hear the other guy praying. But not when the music is playing, obviously. Prayers are a private thing and he doesnt try to share them with us.

Registration day tomorrow in Ballyfermot. Thats another €180 gone. Unless I get taken in to the other course, then its... €380? something like that. I need a job, fast. But without knowing what hours Ill have in college, i cant plan any kind of job. And the interviewers at Ballyfermot told me that I shouldnt work more than 10 hours a week. Sure, I could do that. Goodbye food. I was getting fat anyway.

And I made a discovery. By stumbling around the internet I found out that I have been horribly emotionally abused. Wow. By practically everyone in the world. At least those Ive met. Read about what Ive gone through here. I feel so numb.

Despite the tone of the journal so far, I am looking forward to the coming year. And there is a place to do kendo very near here. If I have the time, I will be doing that too. With all of this going on, dont expect me to be going home to Galway much. Even less than last year.

Now to feed, while i can still get food...

Coming this fall, the highly anticipated sequel to last years smash hit.

Paddy Goes to Dublin 2: The Return

This time our hero must brave the unknown horrors of Ballyfermot as he seeks to unravel the mysteries of Game Design. Age old foes, The Inescapable Rent and The Inexplicable Bill, once again reunite to try to prevent Paddy from reaching his goal.

With the training he will recieve from LUDO, can Paddy bend Game Design to his will and change the world forever? Can he outwit his foes long enough to gather around him the allies he will need for the coming trial?

Find out this fall!!

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Yes, this means I got offered a place for the two year course (LUDO) in ballyfermot.

I will accept.